All Things Trecie

An Open Letter to Damien:

Words escape me. There’s so much I want to say…the weight of my heart solidifies the undoubtable presence of some emotion, yet I’m rendered mute. Praying relentlessly for Ashton to be pulling a cruel prank, but the endless RIP post on FB prove that this gut wrenching news is a reality that we must face.

But how? Where do I begin with accepting that you are gone?

I’ve known you a majority of my life…our dealings helped shape me into the woman I am today. From that day at the park…you on crutches…me infatuated with your smile and cool persona. From that day on a friendship was forged…an unbreakable bond that withstood some of the toughest, craziest things ever.

Can’t believe you are gone.

Thanks for being the man you were in my life. Thanks for being gentle with my heart even when I wasn’t gentle with yours. Thanks for loving me in a pure form. Thanks for being you.

I know you are looking down on me…I’ll always have TDT-n-T in my heart!!

Love you forever, D!


Love Without the Conditions…

Love is not conditional. It is loving someone, no despite who they are, but because of it.  It is loving what and whom they love and accepting everything and everyone in their life if it…and subsequently they…make this person happy.  True love means loving someone the way they need to be loved and not the way you want to love them.

Love… a four letter word more complex in meaning than any word in the dictionary, regardless of the language you speak. Solely because it’s definition differs depending on who you ask, their view on love, how love was presented to them throughout their life and their ability…or inability…to give love to others. 

One thing, despite the definition, love is meant to be unconditional. Meaning that love is supposed to transcend any flaws, faults and imperfections….making the aforementioned minute and irrelevant in the grand scheme of things. 


we tend to treat love as a mathematical condition weighed down by the faults, flaws, imperfections and any other variable thrown into the equation to make it less than appealing.  




We put more emphasis on what can go wrong instead of basking in the joy that nuzzles our heart since they have entered our life. Finding potential pain as a side effect of the joy we feel….if you will. We, as humans, would rather watch our relationship fail because of predicted vices then believe that we can succeed at an imperfect love. We would argue you that 2+25 instead of 2+2=4 based on the fact that we don’t know if the 2’s were rounded down meaning that the equation could be 2.4+2.4=4.8 which rounded up is equal to 5 instead of taking the situation at face value. It’s human nature…it’s in our makeup. 


if we take the conditions out of our love, our imperfect matches would be perfect definitions of the word that puzzles generation after generation.

So instead of focusing on what could go wrong, just appreciate the fact that right now nothing is wrong in your relationship and that you are loved without conditions and weighted predictions.

I tried not to love you,but i cant help it any longer because my heart still wants you.

Video of Billboard charting song “Who’s Gonna Love You More”
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Here are the lyrics:


Verse 1:

Girl, let me set the record straight,

Cause you need to know before it’s too late

That there ain’t another man who could do the things I do for you…you know it’s true.

And you never felt the way you feel when I’m making love to you.

That’s why I can say


If it ain’t me, who’s gonna love you more? Nobody.

If it ain’t me, who’s gonna love you more? 

More, more…who’s gonna love you? 

Nobody but me, it’s always been me babe.

If it ain’t me, who’s gonna love you more…more.

Verse 2:

Oh, why even say those stupid things

(spoken) YOu know what I’m talking about.

I don’t think I could live without you babe.

Oh, when you know you are the only one who makes my world go ‘round.

And there’s not another man who knows how to turn your body out.


If it ain’t me, who’s gonna love you more? Tell me baby.

If it ain’t me, who’s gonna love you more? 

More, more…who’s gonna love you? 

Nobody but me, it’s always been me babe.

If it ain’t me, who’s gonna love you more…more.

Verse 3:

You can’t find this kind of love on facebook,

you can tweet all you like but girl look…

I’m right here, I won’t disappear…

and girl I know that you know…

Chorus (2x):

If it ain’t me, who’s gonna love you more?

If it ain’t me, who’s gonna love you more? Who?

More, more…who’s gonna love you? 

Nobody but me, it’s always been me babe.

If it ain’t me, who’s gonna love you more…more.

Picture is pretty self explanatory….

Picture is pretty self explanatory….

The crazy things from my childhood….Senior year at MLK High School…We had just beat Portland and Cory Brewer….my sports commentating days…

Bankrupt in Love….

I choose to lend my trust and love like a loan without regard for the payment terms

never considering the what ifs when all your love ran out

living in the internal approval that you got the moment you smiled my way…

but here we are…amongst the mess of a maxed out love…way over the limit set before you…

leaving me in a deficit and dealing with the negative ratings on my credit…

the debt too heavy and far beyond my means…

weighing the options and realizing my only choice is to be bankrupt in love…

My favorite Love Letter….Beethoven

Though still in bed, my thoughts go out to you, my Immortal Beloved, now and then joyfully, then sadly, waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us - I can live only wholly with you or not at all - Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped in you into the land of spirits - Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained since you know my fidelity to you. No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never - Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves. And yet my life in V is now a wretched life - Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men - At my age I need a steady, quiet life - can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told that the mailcoach goes every day - therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once - Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence can we achieve our purpose to live together - Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you - you - you - my life - my all - farewell. Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

Masks by Shel Silverstein

The above picture is of a poem by Shel Silverstein.  There are many interpretations of it…my interpretation is that of love.  The whole searching for your soul mate….and being so caught up in and distracted by the search that you never realize the one thing you were searching for has passed you by.

What’s your thoughts?

iPod on Shuffle…..what are my first 10 songs…..

Sooooo the challenge is to put your iPod on Shuffle and see what array of music you get… we go….

1.Gorilla Pimp-Project Pat

2. I Invented Sex- Trey Songz

3. Hot Boys and Girls- Master P, Mia X, Mystial, Silkk the Shocker, Kane & Abel

4. Anytime, Anyplace- Janet Jackson

5. Hey Love- Stevie Wonder

6. Feel Like a Woman- MJB

7. Sweetest Love- Robin Thicke

8. Mafia Niggaz- Three 6 Mafia

9. All I Do Is Think of You- Troop

and *drumroll pleaseeeeee*

10.  Satisfied- Cee Lo Green

“Life is too short for regrets, unhappiness and settling….so live life with passion, love until your heart burst at the seams and realize that the only thing settled on is land, bad debt and cases in court! I plan on smiling until my cheeks hurt, laughing until I can’t breath, loving until Cupid is sick of me and living the life and dreams that were willed for me before I even set foot on this Earth!”
— Yours Truly